hi readers ... have you ever felt extremely disgusting and unattractive and DESPERATELY wanted to know THE celebrity secrets to looking perfect at all times?? here are some of my beauty secrets that i reccommend to no one because i'm a gatekeeper but i GUESS i'll spare u guys... sorry to break it to you but social media is lying and not everyone is beautiful

1. MAKEUP & LEARNING THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN DAY AND NIGHT MAKEUP


DAY MAKEUP: think cute, fresh, barely noticeable. this is for going out for groceries, picnics, taking walks, eating lunch, getting coffee, etc. DITCH THE MASCARA!! only cover your insecurities so like for me i just wear my dior light coverage concealer under my eyes to cover my dark undereyes (I LOOK SO DEAD) highlight your favorite features so wear light highlighter on your cheekbones, cupids bow, nose, etc. wear blush!!! not too much, but just a little and u will look very naturally cute. wear chapstick always- i usually stick to my dior tinted chapstick in the color "rosewood."
NIGHT MAKEUP: hot, fun, dramatic. this is for going out for a late dinner, parties, basically any night time activity that u dress up for. for this you always want to highlight your best features and dramatically, so for me i like to bring all of the attention to my eyes. i like doing fun eyeshadow sometimes but not too crazy. if you are making your eyes bold, then dont wear bright lipstick, if you're making your lips bold then dont wear bright eyeshadow. put the focus on one thing. also really play up your highlighter its so cute especially when its dark. DONT WEAR false lashes, outside of 15 second tiktok videos they're so ugly irl. to do eyeliner i never actually use eyeliner, but a black eyeshadow on a very small brush to draw it on. i like to blend it out rather than have your straight across black lines on your eyes like all the 35 year old moms do. NEVER do cat eye wings, so outdated and weird looking.

2. First thing in the morning


when you wake up you probably check your phone, or get up and brush your teeth, or even turn off your alarm clock. NO. NO. NO. (well i guess after you turn off your alarm clock) you need to pray, even if its super short. just a thank you to god for everything, and ask him to bless your day and everyone/everything you care about. then once you do your short prayer you need to do positive affirmations, bascially has nothing to do with "manifesting" cringe whatever bla blah blah. affirmations is like telling yourself "you're going to have a good day today", "you're so cute today", etc. i always thought it was stupid but then bella hadid and other models were interviewed and they swore by it soooooo now im one of them. dont actually say it out loud thats kind of weird just think it. even if u dont believe what u are saying trust me just say these things and just overall try to wake up and already feel cute. starting your morning off in a good mood can change so much and can help you be a more loving person beautiful inside and out

3. STOP EATING FOOD THAT WILL POSION YOU


even though you might not be overweight (if you are, umm reread the title of this tip) the food you eat is posioning you. like if you eat unhealthy junk food filled with loads of fat and sugar of course you're going to feel all lazy and gross. when you eat good food you will naturally feel clean and healthy and overall you will glow. good foods for general better skin quality & health: salmon, fish. leafy greens like spinach, kale, etc. FRUITS!!!!!! especially berries that are antioxidants like blackberries, raspberries, blueberries, etc. VEGETABLES!!! CUCUMBERS, broccoli, all except potatoes. if you eat unhealthy, dont try to immediatly replace all of your habits with these healthy foods (u will binge), just introduce them into what youre already eating and you will eventually phase out the unhealthy foods. a huge motivating factor for me trying to eat clean is to think of ruining my body as ruining my future kids bodies aswell. i want to be a good mom and to raise healthy kids and i cant do that if im super underweight or overweight, clean eating does not equal under eating

4. MUSIC


i dont know why music was SUCH a revelation to me but as soon as i started blasting my favorite "hype" music when i walk in the hallways i literally felt myself get hotter- LISTEN to music that makes u feel confident. this is embarrassing but i'm starting to get back into cheif keef and when i feel anxious i play his music so loud and i go from feeling insecure to feeling like the hottest in the room. literally just convince yourself that you're hot and if anyone disagrees theyre lying and a hater and actually secretly in love with you (True)

5. Go autistic


when picking out your outfit just go crazy and overanalyze, but make sure you're picking out your outfit the day before so you can think about it in your sleep and actually have time to go autistic about it. whenever i have to present a presentation, i make sure the colors compliment my outfit. my socks, underwear, and bra, usually match the color scheme. all of the metal you wear (pant zippers, buttons, earrings, necklaces) HAVE to match - if i see you wearing gold AND silver i'm going to slap u and never speak to u again. make sure your shoe laces are clean, if you are wearing long sleeves that they aren't too long or too short (if too long sew it to perfect size, if too short then throw it out that shirt doesn't fit you) check all clothes for loose threads, make sure the textures of the clothes aren't overwhelming eachother, match to the temperature of outside AND the room you will be in for the day, etc.check every detail. ALSO never wear a showing top AND a skirt- NONONONO it looks cheap!!! if you're wearing a showing top, then wear covering pants. if you wear a skirt, wear a covering top- it really is simple. unless it's summer and super hot then ofc it's an exception.

6. BE A CHARACTER


everyday that i dont have school (it just ruins the whole character thing :[ ) i wake up and get ready and i picture myself as a character in someone elses movie, its fun to fit random stereotypes. some days during summer i will completely max out the tourist look (in my small town in north carolina) i'll wear those fun big glasses and these rlly cute sandal shoes i have and a bathing suit peeking under my tank top and shorts and i'll just walk around and get coffee and MAYBE go to the pool and read. or i'll try on a very "sophisticated" (lol) sweater and a pleated skirt and sit in the library drinking a disgusting pure black coffee (makesme look even more sophisticated drinking disgusting potent drink) doing nothing all day just pretending to be some blah blah bla smart girl writing in her journal (its entries about my cats and little poems and small drawings but no one has to know that, to them im actually writing a novel about something VERY important!!!!) i like borrowing my grandmas huge red raincoat and wearing it with rainboots and walking outside in the rain with an umbrella (it sounds more fun than it is i was so cold and wet) wearing my pink workout outfit (its my fav thing i own its oososssososo cute OMG) for my outside walk with a headband even though i dont actually go to a gym i workout in my basement alone in sweatpants. wearing a soccer jersey and my adidas shoes with a mini skirt (its fun to match things that dont go together at all u just have to do it right) going to the park with my little sister in a cute summer dress. going to a dinner wearing a silk dress and my hair with pins in it. i could go on foreverrrr. but now if you want real attention... here is the ULTIMATE character. look perfect everyday during school and then one day come to class late, watery eyes from crying, and wear an absolutely NOT MATCHING TERRIBLE BREAKING EVERY RULE outfit. then dont go to class the next day. and then come back to class perfect everyday. always deny anything was wrong and pretend like it never happened. soo many people you would not expect will ask u if ur okay, what happened, or just think about u. what happened to her??she looks like she was RUN OVER. think about it, every celeb has had their britney spears 2007 moment (make sure when u do this u actually are having a breakdown, that would be soooo corny if u were just pretending to (????) no! just let the real u through) at this point i think im just trying to make my public breakdowns somewhat not embarrassing IM just playing a character!totally!!(only like once every 30 days!roughly)

7. Stop being embarrassed just stop


everyday all day i remember every horrible thing ive done and ever embarrassing thing that has happened and its ruining my life, just stop. everytime i think i just stop. i zone out into the wall and i force myself to just stop thinking and it works

8. Realize how ugly everyone is


everyone irl is literally so ugly lmao and u know it. theres like 1 decently attractive person for every 15-20 people MAX. u are one of those everyone sucks and is ugly and ur perfect and hot sorry sucks to suck

9. Find beauty in everything


everything is beautiful. trees, water, birds, nature. my book and the way it was binded in some factory far far away by working people supporting their families just so i could hold and read it. i imagine one of those people go home and eat dinner and spend time with people they love, in a house they love, in a place of love. and in some distant way i am connected to them through this book. the pretty rain that nourishes all of the flowers. even the grey concrete empty dark hallways lit by yellow dim distant light, i like how it's supposed to be so plain and trying everything but to stand out and yet its the image ingrained and attentive in my mind. i love the way that when i walk through this school hallway i can hear a teacher reading the days work vaguely and far, but drowned out by the ticking clock. this is the sound i remember more than my mothers voice. i've heard it since first entering school when i was 5. one day i will not hear my mothers voice again, and eventually this ticking clock sound will expire for me too. but right now in this small portion of being alive i can still enjoy all of the beauty around all of us

10. NEVER forget the most important 2 priorities in living


1.being the most loving and caring person to the important people around you
2. being extremely beautiful



anyways tysm for reading and for like consuming my media and my thoughts its very cool of u and maybe i can even make more of these lists in the future... if u guys want... also i'll be adding a comment section under each post starting from this one because Y not. love u xooxoxoxoxo... see u in hell...